Oh That Devil Inside
Oh that devil within. Will you make yourself known? When the switch flips south and light exits the room you attack my thoughts without mercy. Your resolve and will is perfect. You drive your ambitions deep into my soul. And there I rest, the monster within playing around inside me like a wrecking ball. You exist in all of my doubt about life and tear me apart the more I try to run from you.
But I'll fight no longer, only to eagerly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my incapability to see the battle that created your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I am not making an attempt to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I will just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Perhaps I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. I'm going to start talking with you for the first time. But now, my life choices are primarily based on light. It's time to begin to live my life and make the best choices I can. But I'm aware that I must consult with you...oh demon within. You can show me a trail that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I want to hear what you have got to say.
But I'll fight no longer, only to eagerly embrace your presence. Does this bemuse you? Does this make you weep at the thought of the grip you once had that exists no longer? You held onto me so powerful and so tight due to my incapability to see the battle that created your strength. Like quicksand I sunk the more I moved. But like I claimed before, I embrace the darkness now.
Things have changed. I'll see clearly now that darkness can deliver light. There's no fear in this heart anymore with reference to you showing up. Why? Because you are here...right here deep inside of me. Not walled out from me anymore. Not pushed away. Just here with me. Present. Truly present.
I really am completely aware of what you actually are and who you turned me into. I am not making an attempt to fool anybody any longer by showing them a fake smile on my face. No, I will just be myself. So I tip my cap to you to all of the times you cut me down. Now, let's take a walk and work this thing out. I'd like to hear what you would like to say about all the years of the past. How proud are you? How much fun did you have? Are you proud of your achievements? Perhaps I can even clap to your success?
But we are moving on and this is the birth of a long relationship. I'm going to start talking with you for the first time. But now, my life choices are primarily based on light. It's time to begin to live my life and make the best choices I can. But I'm aware that I must consult with you...oh demon within. You can show me a trail that's worth exploring in of its own. You can show me places I have always been afraid to go. But to ignore you further would be out of idiocy. Stupidity. Fear.
So let's go for a walk. I want to hear what you have got to say.
About the Author:
Evan Sanders is the author of The Words Of Encouragement a website dedicated to spreading encouraging words to everyone who visits and giving them a reason to continue chasing after their dreams. If you are stuck in a rough place, perhaps dealing with that devil within right now, please read these quotes about depression. They will help. A lot.